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03 April 2006 @ 12:53 am
A lot of people seem to think that I'm a really dispassionate person. And I guess I perpetuate that by being laissez faire about schoolwork and the little disappointments life throws at people. I mean, there are a lot of things that I couldn't care less about.

I can only accept the harshness of reality to a certain point - and I wonder why the world is so fucked up that 99% of my peers turn to intoxication to escape. Is it really that bad? Is intoxication that good?

It's so normal for me to go through my days not thinking about drugs or alcohol, and then it comes up that somebody that I know or love or respect is snorting cocaine, and I have two seconds to adjust before it starts to hurt.

It hurts to know that people I care about do drugs. It hurts to know that my mom's an alcoholic. It hurts because I know that there's nothing I can do about it - it's not my place.

I don't understand. I'll probably never understand.
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I Need No Introduction.verysourcherry on April 3rd, 2006 05:11 pm (UTC)
I quit exactly for that reason.
Not for me, but for people who care.
Like you.
And I'm trying to help other people quit too.


...and I didn't know you did Grey's!
invisibob: bzuh?invisibob on April 4th, 2006 01:13 am (UTC)
I know, love.


... just a little. :P